significant lack of blogging;;

I feel like someone is out to get me, because that's just the way life is.

I am not over Wolverine in any way. I'm sorry. Jackie, you can have your cookie back. And I realized this through talking to Aly about both Wolverine and Daredevil. And Daredevil turned out to be the one who seemed less...spectacular. Too ordinary.

No offense to him, or anything. He's still cute.

He's just not...I don't know.

Can I just say once and for all that Wolverine - even if he seems like a jerk for all the crap he put me through and Jackie and Sarina hate him - has a lot of good traits? The kinds that are kinda small but when you think of them, they really make a difference.

Whereas Daredevil is just nice. Which doesn't get you very far, I might add. He's nice, he's cute, he's fun, but he's not Wolverine.

Daredevil's a cotton candy crush. "Some crushes are like cotton candy -- they look yummy and totally tempting, but when you actually get a taste, there's not much there. Suddenly, you're left with disappointment and no crush. Sometimes, a crush should stay a crush, and live a delicious daydream." - Seventeen

And I know I said I'd be over Wolverine and go on and be happy. And I almost did for a couple of days.

And then I went to work at the library.

There was a new volunteer there. My age. Kinda cute. Different school. Did all the basic stuff around the library that I used to do.

You may be thinking, What's wrong with this new guy, you freak? I'll tell you. I'll tell you and you'll either laugh or be like "Ah, shit" or whatever.

His name was the matter. He and Wolverine have the same name, and that made me think of Wolverine all over again, even after I got him out of my system.

Poo biscuits.

I'm gonna post a survey cause I'm weird like that. So shyeaaah.

Are you ready for some questions that you barely find in other surveys?
Absolutely, positively.

Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth?
I do that like all the time. Ha :D

Whose the ugliest person you know?
Um. Uh. This girl at Hebrew camp from 3rd grade. She was cussing at my best friend. She is ugly on the inside very muchly.

When will be the next time you text someone?
When I feel like it, gosh!

How much money did you spend today?
None. Whoa.

What will you be doing tomorrow?
Hannah's birthday party!

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Guys. People. Puffy cheeks.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
It looks weird, lol.

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Cause we were getting married, betch!

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Haha, yeah. Turned out he had no personality. Lol.

Who did you last hold hands with?
Probably Nicole as we skipped to Starbucks.
No, wait. That was arm link-age.

Do you ever feel the need to take pictures?
Yeah. Hahaha.

Who is the last person to have their arms around you?
I don't remember. Stop asking me stuff like that!

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
Shyeahh.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Took my antibiotics.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
Mommmmm shutup! Benniiiiiii shutup!

Do you miss someone?
I always do. There's always someone to miss.

Have you ever ran away?
Yeah. I got to my best friend's house.

Have you ever eaten a bug?
Probably.

Are you vegetarian?
I can't handle vegetarianism, ahh.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
I have tons! Jealous?

Do you even believe in love?
Of course :D

Do you like picnics?
Haha, those are fun.

Are you American?
Yeah.

Do you sometimes watch the news?
Yeah. With my dad.

Have you ever been to world trade center?
No.

When did you last go on a plane?
Oh, wow. I think for the 8th grade DC trip? Last year.

Be honest, who is the easiest person in your life to talk to?
Wolverine used to be. Sarina is.

Who are the funniest people you talk to?
Oh, god. Too many. I can't name them all. But I'll just say Lyn and Zoe. Respect the Unicorn!

Who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Ali! Lol.

Are you currently feeling the need to tell someone something?
Yeah. I can't though. I will never ever ever again.

What emotion are you feeling right now?
I think I'm emotionless as of right now.

Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?
Yeah...

Are relationships ever really worth it?
Some of them are. You need the magic for them to work out.

When was the last time you were in a very good mood?
Probably Sunday. That was a great day.

Were you single last summer?
Yeah-huh.

When was the last time you read a book just for the fun of it?
Today.

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed, where?
My playroom when I was little.
Shut up.

Will the next person you kiss be the same person you last kissed?
Oh, god. I hope not. That'll be so awkward.

Do you think you'll have the same bestfriend a year from now?
Of course!

Are you generally a happy person?
Uh...not really.

Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
Yeah, haha. I was watching Baby Mama, too.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Red.

Where will you be in a hour?
In Dreamland, hopefully.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
My mom. Woohoo.

How’s your heart been lately?
It's kinda crumbly. Not like apple crumble crumbly, though. Kinda ripped.

What is the last movie you watched?
Fight Club.

Are you good at making new friends?
I personally don't think so, but people just randomly decide to befriend me. Am I fun to talk to or something?
I'm completely serious here. I'm not sure how I became friends with Wolverine and co on the cruise, or how I became friends with the people in my brother's theater group, or how I became friends with my drama family.
I'm totally sure about a ton of other people, though. My best friends :D

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?
Oh, yeah. Like at the mall with Chelsea and we saw the popular people and we walked away haha.

Who is the last girl you talked to?
My mom or Sarina.

Honestly, what's on your mind?
My face is sore.
And Wolverine. Fuck this.

When’s the last time you talked to your sister?
I have a sister? OH MY WORD.

What are you listening to?
Myself typing. And faint TV noises.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yeah, I kinda do.

Are you fluent in any other language besides English?
Nope. I know like 3 words in tons of other languages, haha.

Do you regret something you did today?
Forget regrets, or life is yours to miss.

Who is your last missed call from?
My mom. Guessing. Probably true.

Will this Sunday be a good one?
Yeah! Kiely's birthday party!

Do you enjoy wearing dresses?
I don't like to wear them unless I'm not the only one or there's a guy who thinks I look pretty. Lol.

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
It's hardly a secret. Blablabla.

Do you think you will ever get married?
I hope so.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
It's hard work, but they should be able to.

Are you a jealous person?
I guess I am. It's bad, I know.

What's one thing you will never do?
Drugs.

How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?
My dad would be like, "Niiiiice." Then my mom would start screaming and try to wash it off, haha.

What's your favorite kind of weather?
I like the rain.

Do you hate when people whistle all the time?
Yeah, because I can't.

Do you like scrambled eggs w/ ham?
Haha, yes!

Do you own a phonograph (record player)?
My preschool had one?

Last CD you bought:
Spring Awakening. Haha.

What color are the walls in your bedroom?
Purple. Woo.

What did you do yesterday?
Sat around and played guitar.

Do you have a favorite piece of jewelry?
Yeah. I wear it all the time.

What was the last thing you wrote down?
Probably numbers in sudoku.

In your opinion, what's the nicest thing someone can do?
Stay friends with me, even if they're swept into popularity.

Can dreams really come true?
Some of them can.

What store can you spend hours in?
Tilly's. Hahahahaha. Or a toy store or candy shop.

Have you ever been sunburned so bad your skin started to peel?
Oh, god. Nope.

Does the future scare you? If so, why?
Yeah. I've always been afraid to grow up. I can't handle being an adult, paying taxes, staying in a place on my own. I want to be a kid forever.

What movie can make you cry no matter what?
I don't know.

Favorite thing to do?
Talk with my best friends.