I AM NOT AN ATTENTION WHORE. I'm a middle child.
Jackie, you should be reading this, fellow middle child. And Aly, too. But, I don't know. You guys seem to get a ton of attention in your families.
ANYWAYS. There's this "thing" called the Middle Child Syndrome. You know...your older sibling is oldest and gets most praise. Your younger sibling is the baby and gets all the attention. And then you're stuck in no man's land wondering why nobody ever talks about you.
Let's take a trip to my house. Downstairs, you'll see my mom and Isaak surrounded by other women. "My son has one of the leads in Little Shop of Horrors," she tells the women, beaming.
Upstairs, Beni and my dad are sprawled around notebooks, textbooks, and a computer. "Beni, to get your grades up, you need to study this, this, and this. That way you'll be able to get into this college."
A dog is curled up in one of his three beds, surrounded by bones, toys, and a collection of doggy clothes.
This seems like a perfect family.
But what's this? Another door? One that says...oh my goodness...Tessa? How can this be? I've only ever heard of Isaak and Beni. And...what's this? She's trying to write in her blog/play electric guitar but is
My mom doesn't even know me. The other day she came home with a busty-looking turquoise dress (for winter formal) and was like, "Oh, we can share this!" Um, no. She also thinks I'm a) shorter than her (har har) b) in 7th grade c) born in 1992 and d) "independent". That's her excuse for never helping me with homework, never being in the PTA, never being a room mom, missing all of my dance shows, not even boasting about the articles I've written or the fact that I was Editor in Chief last year for the school paper, forcing me into tennis (which I actually hate, thankyouverymuch.), and telling me that trying to be famous is stupid.
THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM. I LOVE ALLLLLLLL OF YOUR SUPPORT. GO SUCK A LEMON. NOW.
Oh, and this is sorta random, but we were at this restaurant and Chasing Pavements was playing. My mom looks right at me and is like, "This is emo music, right?" because everyone tells her I'm emo and she thinks she's connecting with me I guess. And I'm just like, "No...not even close." But she responds and is like, "Yes it is. It's filled with emotion."
DONE.
EDIT: Oh, and it turns out I'm not just neglected. I'm also Cinderella. Cleaning up after Mardy/Isaak/Beni/Mom/Dad FTW!
9 comments:
wow. thats really deep tessa. i totally get what you mean. my mom treats me somewhat like that- though im not a middle child. its truly sad. but even though my mom doesn't know me that well [we've gotten to know each other better since last year] i know her 'making me take piano' , 'do chinese hw' [yes. not only does she want me to do school hw, i have to do that ^^], and dance. and choir. and i know shes making me do this bcz, she luvs me and she wants me to have a good future. so i hope u dont think ur mom is just a plain bitch or w/e u think of her XD. she does care for u, even though she might not verbally share it. or obviously show it too.
so think positive darling :]
but dude. "Chasing Pavements". Emo? wtf. i wld have slapped my mother atm. XD. i luv that song btw hehehe
my mom always says "Oh, yes, you get a ton of attention, Tessa!" and then she goes off and fusses over Mardy.
but if it is for a better future, I have to say, it's not helping |: colleges are looking for people who have passion for things. i LOVEx28938120938298312193219317291 skiing, but my mom hates when i go on top of the mountain. i kinda greatly dislike tennis but im forced into it like 3 times a week.
i know right?! i was like "Um...whydidweteachmomthiswordagain?" to my older brother.
my mom also goes around saying "ex dee" btw. she thinks she looks cool, lolz.
wattttttt? ex dee? wait. wher'd she get this from? wtf.lol. well mayb in the future u'll b glad ur mom wasn't so 'oh tessa, wear this today' or whatever lol. or u could regret nawt talking to ur mom enough. try talking to her. like actually TRY. and yes, i know u'll say 'i do tammie, so stfu' but i think u have to actually tr harder and b honest with ur mom. dude. ppl are dumb. we all are. b DIRECT.
ahahah.
i'm honest with my mom a ton, tammie xD and yes, i almost did say "i do tammie, so stfu." >:D
Typical conversation:
Mom: How's school?
Me: Fine? Except *i*o*e keeps being...strange.
Mom: How?
Me: We were gonna go to the mall today but there wasn't enough room in the car so I just stayed home (true story). But it turned out there was enough room in the car.
Mom: *explodes* *i*o*e SHOULDN'T BE SAYING THAT! I'M GOING TO CALL HER MOTHER BECAUSE YOU ARE ANGRY.
Me: ...no I'm not.
Mom: YES YOU ARE. YOU ARE CRYING.
Me: No, I'm not.
Mom: YES. YOU. ARE.
Me: Okay then! Gosh! *cries*
mmm i can see wat u mean by 'im honest with my mom' but thats not wat i mean by being honest with ur mom LOL.
oh well im too tired and cold to sound like a smart ass LOLllll
i know what you mean, haha.
i was like "mom, have you ever read those articles about how the middle child is neglected?" i seriously just put it out there.
and then she's like "you're not neglected tessa. you're the only daughter."
but then there's the days when i'm home sick, but my mom just HAS to play tennis. so she's like "take this medicine," when i wake up and then leaves for 2391829038 hours.
:[ i don't really know what to say besides that sucks, and sorry you feel that way. maybe try writing her a note telling her how you feel? wow, that sounds cheesy but maybe it'd work. something like a toned-down version of the blog post...
btw, this is kate. it says 'the clique' because i'm logged on the TCA email account...lol
your posts still put a smile on my face. i missed youu tessaaa. i havent spoken to jackie in like 9913438 years thoo ):
but anywho i gots to agree. when i was younger it was kinda like that. but be strong tessiebearr. if i got through it, you shall toooo!
lots off lovelylovee,
aly <33
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